I've been doing a lot of thinking under the stars lately..

I've come to realize growing up is harder than I thought. I've made a lot of mistakes lately, mostly while under the influence of booze. I've hurt a lot of people who are close to my heart, but I've been forgiven. thankgoodness for them. I'm gonna smarten up.
It frustrates me when people can't understand where I'm comming from sometimes too, no matter how much I explaine the situation I may be in. Like decisions I make...they might not seem realistic, or smart...but right now, it seems to be what fits best. I like to follow my heart. It's lead me good places. And if in the future, my decisions turn on me, it'll be a mistake learned through growing up. But thats whats awesome about taking chances. They're experiences you think will beinifit you. I've made lots of decisions that dont work out so well. N' like I said, I've hurt people. To them, they know I'm sorry. I'm appologysing the best I can...I'm only human. Mistakes are inevitable...or however you spell it...
I hate Drama so much...but I guess it's what you create on your own, right... I've never seen myself as a dramatic person...but it's dealing with it thats hard too. I dono..this is all just thinking I've done lately.

Bottom line, to those I've hurt, I'm sorry. To those who think less of me now, or scold me for the mistakes I've made, please forgive me.

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